back off please?

i just ruined my life, and im loving every depressing second i hv, and im enjoying when every each one of my friends start to hate me. and im living my life the way i should, and im starting to act abnormally, and im trying to kill myself mentally, and im listening to more sad songs than ever, and im losing my appetite, and im eating more and more chocs soo tht i cn calm myself, and im pleading to everyone to stop blaming me! and im hating each souls i know, and im very very emotional, and im letting my unstable emotions to control me, and i have the feeling to kill myself right now! why dont u kill me, since u hate me so much? back off and mind ur own bussiness, YEAH!IHATEMYLIFE!